So what now?

So summer is officially over. The saddest time of the year is about to start. It is called autumn and winter. I had one of my best summers ever because as you know I quit my job and saved some money to enjoy my summer and a few more months after that. I was the friend this summer who was always available when someone wanted to grab lunch or have a few drinks in the sun. I loved it!

But now that summer is over I have to start applying for jobs and let me tell you it is pretty overwhelming. I did not get the epiphany I was expecting and finally realized what I wanted to do with my life. So after coming back from a beautiful vacation with my mom to Jamaica. I will write about that in another blog post. Back to being overwhelmed and not knowing what to do with my life.

When I was in Jamaica I had some time to be alone and sit with my thoughts. During those moments I was even thinking about subletting my house so I can go away for at least 6 months to a sunnier place. The older I get the more I realize that this Dutch weather is not for me. I am always so happy when there is some sun even when life is falling apart, the sun makes everything better.

I am just ranting in this post and it feels good to just type away my thoughts. I don’t even know if anybody will ever read this. If someone does that’s great but it’s very therapeutic so it’s a win-win either way.

A few more things and I am going to end this post for today. I am going to finally start reading a book per week. I have a pile that is waiting for me. I will write about that next week. I will write the titles and what I thought about the book. I also have two courses that I started at the beginning of this year which I want to finish by the end of February 2023. I am writing this because I want to hold myself accountable and achieve these goals.

Anyway back to go planning my week and cross off some things on it like this blog post.

Loving and leaving you right now. See you in the next post. Thanks for reading.

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12 thoughts on “So what now?

      1. Now on vacation reading Confessions of a 40 something fuck up! Feeling that same vibe in your blog! Very nice and easy book about a girl with the same dilemmas!

      2. Oh really? I have to go read that book. Putting in on my list as we speak. And please enjoy every bit of your vacation for me cause the weather over here is 😩 And also thanxxx for reading my little blog. 😊

  1. Girlll, I’m secretly envying you. Sometimes we have to jump and see where we land.
    It’s all good, you are strong and have a strong support team around you. So, don’t let your anxiety get the best of you… acknowledge it, feel it, but keep going. You will reach where you’re supposed to be.
    You got this, keep strong. Much love!

    1. Thanxx for taking the time to read my little rant and for your beautiful and kind words. You don’t know how much it means to me when people comment on these. It makes me feel heard so thank you again🥰I will try to not let anxiety win☺️

  2. Hey beautiful lady, very inspiring and BALZY!!
    It takes a lot of bravery to do what you are doing….Trust your guts, Trust the process and Love every moment of your journey….

    1. Thank you so much Aisha. It is scary sometimes but I am going to continue on this journey and see where it’s going to take me. Thanxxx for reading and your beautiful and kind words.

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